Father's Day, 2017

Last night loneliness crept beside me

wrapped my wrists in its claws and whispered,

  'You are alone.'

I am a grown woman

but felt like an adolescent girl

who can't find a friend in the cafeteria.

My father and my mother are dead

and last night I could not feel any sense of them.

Is it dramatic to feel like I wanted to die?

I fell asleep only to dream of my mother,

who no longer wanted to be around me.

My best friend didn't want to be my best friend. 

I suppose Heaven is better than any best friend.

Is it still too dramatic to feel like I wanted to die?

It's these holidays.

There is a global design to find the perfect gift for dad, 

and the sales stab my sad gut. 

All the ties, the books, the cards  

  everything hurts on Father's Day.

My brother just sent me a picture of the sky above my parents grave.

  'My view as I lay here with mom and dad.'

I don't really want to die.

I just want my parents back.

We are all young children, 

lost in the super-market,

trying to find our parents.